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ugh... life. [28 Jan 2007|10:49am]
[ mood | depressed ]

things suck lately. i don't know what to do anymore.

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life. [28 Oct 2006|03:47pm]
so even though i now have a license.... i still don't think i want to go out. i don't know... it just seems so pointless. i'd rather sit home alone on a friday night than go out to a bar with a bunch of drunk people. but anyway... last night sucked. i'm bored.
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oww. [20 Aug 2006|01:13pm]
[ mood | bored ]

so yesterday was really fun... well for the most part. had that annoying loser not been with us, i would have been much happier. it just sucks that i got so sunburnt. i look like a crawfish... seriously. haha.

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it's going to be a good day. [19 Aug 2006|08:38am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

today i'm going tubing with tiffany... fun! it's just going to be a little weird because the only time i've been tubing is with jeremy. oh well... that's not stopping me. i just want her to hurry up and call!!! ahh, i'm ready to go. i just hope i don't get sunburnt.

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NO MORE FAST FOOD! [31 May 2006|07:33pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

so im finally home.. i have orientation next week... school starts on the 12th, im excited. mom is cooking real food, im so happy... and i dont feel like typing.

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nothing happened... im a drama queen. [04 May 2006|07:00pm]
so about yesterday. i overreacted... jeremy was tired and busy and drinking, so why did i throw a fit? because i just wanted to talk to him for more than 30 seconds. and i finally did... he called and calmed me down. he didnt realize how upset it made me. then this morning he called to tell me that he loved me and to have a good day... that made my day better. but i had hopes of seeing him all day, but i couldnt get in touch with him. finally i woke him up and he wanted to go back to sleep. i guess ill just have to wait until tomorrow. but itll be ok.. ill live.
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ahh... life. [13 Apr 2006|05:28pm]
[ mood | confused ]

so.. i dont know what to think. he says one thing and does another... why cant he just do was he says or say what he does? im so confused.... and there is so much drama. but im not giving up... i still care too much. and i want to be with him... i just wish he would make a little sense sometimes. ugh... but i love him.

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shes a whore. [05 Apr 2006|08:50pm]
[ mood | angry ]

so my cousin is a huge whore and i cant stand her.... but i get to pretend like i like her ALL next week. fun... oh and she 'needs' jeremy to pick her up from the airport... hah.

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life is great. [01 Apr 2006|11:16pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

so hes amazing... for a little while earlier this week i wasnt sure what was going to happen... all i knew was that i didnt want things to be over, not even for just a little while. all i wanted to be able to with him as much as possible before he left. but now things are better... and i know that he loves me and everything will be alright when hes gone. i love him.

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so im 18.... now what? [13 Feb 2006|10:00am]
[ mood | bored ]

so... the birthday was sweet. me and jeremy had the best time.... we went to hooters. it was nice. he bought me a tulip plant for valentines day and thats just the coolest thing ever! i love him... and our relationship is amazing these days... im so happy. apparently i got accepted to lsu... never officially got a letter but on my orientation application they said that i was admitted on the 2nd... so thats amazing. but my kidney hurts... i need to make a doctors appointment and im going to do some correspondence.

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[31 Jan 2006|09:06pm]
12 Reasons Gay Marriage Will Ruin Society

1. Homosexuality is not natural, much like eyeglasses, polyester, and birth control.

2. Heterosexual marriages are valid because they produce children. Infertile and old couples cannot get legally married because the world needs more children.

3. Obviously gay parents will raise gay children because straight parents only raise straight children.

4. Straight marriage will be less meaningful, since Britney Spears’ 55-hour just-for-fun marriage was meaningful.

5. Heterosexual marriage has been around for a long time, and it hasn’t changed at all: women are property, blacks can’t marry whites, and divorce is illegal.

6. Gay marriage should be decided by the people, not the courts because the majority elected legislatures, not courts, have historically protected the rights of minorities.

7. Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are always imposed on the entire country. That’s why we only have one religion in this country.

8. Gay Marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people makes you tall.

9. Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage license.

10. Children can never succeed without both male and female role models at home. That’s why single parents are forbidden to raise children.

11. Gay marriage will change the foundation of society. Heterosexual marriage has been for a long time, and we could never adapt to new social norms because we haven’t adapted to longer life spans.

12. Civil unions, providing most of the same benefits as marriage with a different name are better because a “better but equal” institution is constitutional. Separate schools for African Americans worked as well as separate marriages will for gays and lesbians.
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[16 Nov 2005|05:57am]
i just want everything to be ok. last night, for the first time in a while, i finally felt like things would really be ok. im trying o hard to not talk about our relastionship to anyone else... espcially jamie, but its so hard when she asks. what am i supposed to do? and now i dont have a phone. its going to be even harder to talk to him... and this sucks. i dont know what to do.
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every bad side [11 Nov 2005|08:27pm]
my life is a roller coaster... its constantly going up and down, up and down. just when things start to get back up life throws me through a loop.. its horrible. but im finally learning how to just go with things and how to keep my mouth shut. everything is going back to being normal and happy... jeremy and i have our bad times but we have a million more good times so its ok. my parents suck... but i still have all my wonderful memories of them. i hate living here but atleast i will get a car very soon. so there is a good side to every bad side and ive finally realized how to find it. so yes, right now my life isnt so bad.. i will be happy.
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i can hardly wait. [02 Nov 2005|07:06pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

jeremy is on his way here! how exciting... i finally get to see him and his tattoo... ive missed him sooo much.

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[01 Nov 2005|08:05pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

although i have read this before... its really important at this moment... i stole it from marley's lj and to use her words 'its amazingly true.'

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

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confused? [31 Oct 2005|10:55pm]
[ mood | blah ]

im still so confused.... STOP OVERANALYZING THINGS BROOKE!
this is beginning to get ridiculous. why cant i just let it go? i wish i was more self confident... but im not. oh well, time for bed soon. well time to lie down until my love calls.

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ex girlfriends and heartache. [31 Oct 2005|08:56pm]
[ mood | confused ]

'oh you added your ex girlfriend. thats so cute' yeah and im sure he didnt even correct her and say 'girlfriend, were back together' and that hurts.... it really hurts. the whole shannon situation still bothers me. its like he went off, dated this chick... things didnt work out so he just comes back to me... and yes i want to be with him and yes i do love him. but at the same time it still really hurts. now i feel like i can be replaced at any given time if someone better comes along. hes still talking to her... well if shes so stupid and crazy then why does he feel the need to keep in touch? it cant be that hard. he didnt talk to me for days... he expects me to not talk to certain people or not see them but he can do the opposite. thats not cool. if i cant talk to certain people then neither can he.. well at least thats what i want to say. but i know that i also cant control him. if he wants to talk to her he will. and i just wont find out about it. i guess eventually things will be okay. hell gradually stop talking to her like he did with barbara and like hes doing with nikki. so i guess everything is good... it just sucks that shes in houston. because now everytime he goes im going to be paranoid that hes with her. and i dont want to feel like that. but i cant help it. he says that shes nothing but at the same time he seems to think that he has feelings for her.... i mean they did date, even if it was only for a week or two. the worst part about that is, he acknowledges the fact that they were 'dating' it makes me feel like shit because it was just sooo easy for him to leave me and go straight to her. but he cares about me so much and realizes that he made a mistake.... blah blah blah. yeah he says all that after things we she and him dont work out. it makes me question his sincerity. and i cant help it. i want to trust him and believe everything he says but its so hard when hes proved to me that sometimes i cant. its hard to just believe him when hes always talking about other girls and stuff. i should just know that im the only one he loves. i mean i am the one that he runs to at the end of the day. but i need to stop focusing on all the negative.... we are together and thats made me so happy for the past few days. things are finally going back to normal... i hope.

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life is good. [31 Oct 2005|05:34pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

so thus far my day has been nice. i got a wake up call from jeremy this morning... it made me smile. that put me in a good mood for the rest of the day. then i went to school and it was boring. im finally catching up on all my work though. so thats good. missing those days last week really threw everything off. but i finally got to talk to amber... havent actually had a conversation with her in a while. so that was nice. french was ok. she gave me all my makeup work. its not as much as i expected...
talked to jeremy for a few minutes on my way home. god, i miss him. but thankfully hell be home in 2 days. so all is well. im waiting for him to get off work and pick up his check and then call me.
but yeah, so im in a better mood today than i have been lately. im actually about to go organize my room. how fun...

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homework and im a stereotypical highschool girl. [17 Aug 2005|04:30pm]
[ mood | i gotta pee. ]

im doing homework... its boring boring boring. jeremy thinks ive turned into the stereotypical teenager. he says i used to be cool like him but since school started again im gay now. haha. i dont mean to change. i actually dont even realize that i am. oh well. i cant wait to see him. although i have to wait until saturday because hes going to a party friday night. so i guess im going to hang out with jade... maybe. it depends, on what shes doing. but for now, im going to go call jeremy back. im tired of being here. i want to go home now.

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jeremys house is always so COLD! [10 Aug 2005|12:54pm]
[ mood | cold ]

so once again, here i am. sitting at jeremys while hes at work. my dad was supposed to be here early today but he didnt get here until 11 something.. ha, yeah thats really early. aunt cheryl wants me to go home tonight, but i dont think that i want to. hmm... i dont know. i want to spend one last night with jeremy before i have to go back to school. but i guess well see later on. god, i hope that me and amber get the same lunch. i miss her. and school is going to be the only time that we get to see each other. it sucks, shes living the life i always wished i would be. but i need to quit wishing for things that ill never have and grateful for what i do have. i guess everything happened to teach me a lesson. i never took things for granted but i also never had to work for anything. and now if i want something im going to have to work my hardest to get it. it just sucks that things have turned out this way. but its ok, ill live. i really do have to focus more on school. its a must. i still have to finish my correspondance and then i need to figure out where im going to get another 1/2 credit from. im sure itll come from drivers ed when i finally do finish taking it. i dont know... but for now, im going to stretch (maybe) and then go clean jeremys room... because im the best girlfriend ever. lol.

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